Time-out on veggie posts

Pause the vegetarian rant for a post here.  Just updating things in life.

All in all, things are going very well.  Steph is adjusting to being back at work, I am adjusting to a new career path.  Looking back at some negative posts in the recent months, I am glad to say that I am no longer in that dark place.  Not saying there won't be relapses from time to time, but the sharp pain I was feeling back then has receded into a distant, vague discomfort which I truthfully don't even feel that often any more.  It creeps up and nags at the back of my memory from time to time, and there are certainly triggers, but I am feeling better and better about my choices and the path ahead.  I'm finding myself able to daydream about possible futures again, which is something I hadn't done for a long long time.  And it's good.

Also I need to take this time to give another shout out to my amazing wife.  Steph showed the patience of a saint in sticking with me through my trying times, and it just makes me fall even more deeply in love with her.  She's an amazing woman, and an amazing human being, and I am truly blessed to have ended up with her.  It's not self-deprecation when I say I can't imagine what she's doing with me - I'm an okay guy, but she's just so incredible...I'm the luckiest guy there is.

And my kids are pretty amazing too.  Steph and I have redoubled our efforts to be there for them, and it already seems to be paying off.  It's an unfortunate thing when life throws a negative lens in front of your face, and you start to see your own children through that lens - for a while all I could see were the problems and the troubles, which all kids have but I imagine always seem worse when they're your own kids.  But finally I'm being able to let go of these perfect expectations and see how wonderful and cool my kids are, despite all their flaws.  They deserve a much better dad than I've been and I'm trying to fix that.  I hope they can see it and that they will forgive the doofus I've been for a while.

So, life marches slowly on towards a still-unknown future.  But it's a good life as long as we're all together.  Thank God for all I've been given.  I'll always be grateful for those amazing gifts.

Matt