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Friday, June 17, 2011

11 Years Later

And here we are.

11 years ago, I made a promise before family, friends, and God, to stay true to the love of my life, no matter what. Part of that oath has become a cliche in our culture: "For better or for worse." In our 11 years together, we have been blessed to experience a lot of better. In the last few months we have endured some of the worst.

Steph, my love. Times have been tough, and right now for us, the future is as uncertain as anything we have ever faced together. We have friends who have supported us. We have enemies who would love to see us fail. But in reality, the people who have put us in this position genuinely don't care one way or the other.

But none of that matters. Friends, enemies, or indifferent, nothing and no one has changed the love which we share and which we know will carry us through this and all other obstacles in our path. What we have is bigger than anything life can throw at us.

And recently, as seemingly all other aspects of my life steadily unraveled around me, I still always knew that your loving arms awaited me at the end of that day's road. And I know that even if the next chapters of my life involve food service or food stamps...I know that our love is enobling and will help me walk a potentially humiliating road with dignity.

For despite our financial situation, our love makes us rich, richer than any I know. And in spite of all that has happened...I would not trade the road that God has set out for us for any other road. Because only on this road will I find you, and only on this road will we walk together.

I have loved the first 11 years together. I can't wait to see what happens next. Meet you back here, same time next year. The story is just getting interesting.

Matt

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Bittersweet journey

We are about to embark on another trip - which would usually be cause for immense celebration. I live for travel. It's what I go through the whole year of stress for. So hooray! We're going on a trip!

But it's not what it was supposed to be. We are blessed and grateful to be able to visit Steph's family in Jacksonville, and to be able to spend a week at the beach in Hilton Head. But this was originally going to be an extended trip including our first trip to Disney with the kids, and our first stay at a beachfront RV park in Ft. Myers. We had to cancel most of the trip because of the job situation. And as the situation continues to unfold, it becomes more and more likely that there may never be a big trip in the trailer and the RV again. One of the things I love most in the world has been ripped away from me and it's pretty hard to think about.

BUT. We have this week together with our families and we are not going to sit around moping. This is a wonderful week we always get to spend, and as I said, we're blessed to have it. It's more than a lot of people get. So we will make the most of it. The one thing they can't take away from us is our family, and our love of time spent together.

So keep checking in for information about our trip. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

Matt

Monday, May 30, 2011

Keeping busy

Lest anyone think I'm going to sit around and eat bonbons all day...

Saturday I mowed and trimmed the lawn and then did the same for the friend of a friend of a friend...picking up a few bucks along the way, continued to work with mom on removing the paint from the front porch posts to be repainted, worked with grandpa on an outdoor house project (me using mortar?) and took a couple loads of stuff over to the church rummage sale.

Sunday I assigned the girls to straighten up the living room and the twins' room, and I tackled the horrors of the storage room. You can now walk all the way back without having to leap over carseats and preschool Spanish visual aids. Still not 'organized' but it is at least visually acceptable. Also worked with Steph on sanding, washing, and priming Hannah's toddler bed (yes, it is long past time they get out of the cribs), and had a wonderful date night with my beautiful wife. Got back from that, made a breakfast casserole for the Memorial Day Brunch at Ma and Pa's, and went to bed.

Today, had some continued success with Robby and potty training in the morning, had a nice brunch, played in the backyard with the kids (although not too long - hot and humid), came home, set the girls to clean the basement, Steph put the first coat on the bed, managed to knock the desktop CPU tower over which hosed the hard drive, dad came over, we took it apart, scratched our heads, put it back together and then somehow it worked again...played with the kids, took them for a walk (or a bike and a scoot more accurately) changed the sheets on the beds (a real challenge in the girls' room with the bunk beds and the small library of books and toys that became buried in there. Then, went through my closet and, since I have kept the weight off for over 2 years now, set aside more than HALF my clothes to donate to the rummage sale.

All while Hannah has been fighting a nasty fever.

And I'm sure I missed something.

So basically, I am channeling my energy into the house and kids and I feel great doing it. Have a lot of plans and things to work on tomorrow, and I'm excited to get to them all.

I am blessed with a wonderful family. I have no right to complain about anything right now.

Matt

Saturday, May 28, 2011

The Whirlwind

Hello again all,

As predicted, facebook has killed my blog. But fear not, the day is approaching when I will cease and desist from using the accursed social media and return to expressing myself through this blog.

The job search continues, but with a quiet reserve instead of a frantic desperation. I want more than anything to continue teaching music, but am working through the painful process of accepting the reality that it's probably not going to happen...at least in the near future.

There will be a trip to Hilton Head, but the Disney/Fort Myers part of that vacation has been cancelled, so that the money set aside for that can possibly be used for moving expenses...or to keep us financially afloat in the event that neither Steph or I can land a job.

The kids continue to be a handful, but a wonderful handful. The biggest sadness about all this job business is that I have had my attention dragged away from the light of my life, my family. But now that the door has closed on my previous position, I am ready to devote myself fully to being the family man I have not been able to be for 2 months.

This has been a trying time but in looking back on my performance in this trial by fire, I give myself not a standing ovation but a silent nod of approval. Made some mistakes, but above all, stayed true to myself, my morals and ethics.

Those of you on facebook, that will probably continue to be the primary method of communication...just more secure posting info there until things get settled.

God bless you all!

Matt and family

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

We are still here

The blog is not being updated. A wise friend pointed out that in this digital age, I need to be careful about what gets posted on the blog when I'm conducting a job search. For that reason (and the fact that finding a job is a full-time job) the blog has been put in storage for the time being. As mentioned before, I am reluctantly using facebook to keep people informed, so please find information on our family situation there, if you are so inclined.
We all look forward to the time when things settle down once again and we are able to concentrate on the little things once more. We are in the whirlwind and trusting in God to guide us through.
Thanks to all for your continued thoughts, prayers, and support.

Matt and family

Sunday, March 13, 2011

In other news

Just in time for interview season, I am at my lowest weight since 2003ish. And it's being done healthily, on the Matt diet. I will have to explain the Matt diet sometime.

Since my blimpiest point, when I was somewhere around 255 pounds in the summer of 2008, I was down to 192 this afternoon. Now, I proceeded to stuff my face full of dad's great carnitas at dinner, so I'll be back up. Have to go dig up an old photo for a nice before and after shot.

FYI, at 192 pounds, my wedding ring starts randomly falling off, and I am starting to need a belt for the size 38 jeans. Feels good.

It's Sunday night. Another week is starting. Here goes nothing...

Matt

Saturday, March 12, 2011

From Sea to Shining Sea...

...the job search is underway.

For the sake of my career and family, I have bitten the bullet and started using facebook. I don't like it, but I already have made possible connections in 2 states that I would not have had otherwise. So, it's serving its purpose.

All is as well as can be. Our faith is strong and will see us through a challenging time. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

Matt

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Event Horizon?

Hello all. Things are still happening, but in a lot of ways, we are all sort of living in stasis until we know what there is to know about the job situation. Thus, I just haven't felt a great desire to keep the blog up to date. One way or the other, once news comes in (we expect SOMEthing within a month or so at worst) things will start to pick up here. We have done all we can do. My resume is updated, and a working cover letter is drafted and ready to be sent to any place in the country that might be in the market. We have done preliminary basic research on other places in the country that might be decent places to live.

Now here's hoping we don't need any of it.

God bless,
Matt

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Are We the Same?

At Christmas, pretty much the only thing I asked for was as usual money and/or gift cards to buy more music. Amazon, iTunes, etc. Did pretty well. Actually, great. Ended up being able to purchase 18 new albums.

Now for me, this is 'kid in a candy store' time. Sadly, I never have time to listen except at the end of the day, and I usually last about 5-10 minutes before I crash. So it takes a while. But it's a wonderful feeling for me, knowing that I have SO
MUCH new music that I can't actually remember all I got.

Now, this process is often quite fascinating. Because often the new music jogs my memory of other things I haven't listened to for a while, and sends me running back to the archives to rediscover old forgotten music. And often the stuff that barely made the cut to be purchased ends up being the unexpected gem.

So, to be specific, because I know you care: Here's what I ended up getting, sorted more or less by category:

Prog Rock:

Spock's Beard - "X"
The Flower Kings - "Back in the World of Adventures"
The Flower Kings - "The Rainmaker"
The Flower Kings - "Flowerpower"

More Traditional Alternative/Rock:

Ed Kowalcyzk - "Alive"
The Tragically Hip - "We Are the Same"

Post-rock/Post-metal:

Mogwai - "Mr. Beast"
Explosions in the Sky - "How Strange, Innocence"
Sigur Ros - "Agaetis Byrjun"
Russian Circles - "Enter"
God is an Astronaut - "The End of the Beginning"
Caspian - "The Four Trees"
Jonsi - "Go"

Other:

The Album Leaf - "In a Safe Place"
Tristeza - "Dream Signals in Full Circles"
A Northern Chorus - "Bitter Hands Resign"
Esmerine - "If Only a Sweet Surrender to the Nights to Come Be True"
Ulrich Schnauss - "Goodbye"

The "Other" category blurs into the post-rock somewhat, with the exception of Ulrich Schnauss which is electronica. So. Diverse list. And I've been through a bit of it.

But the fascinating thing is that I can't seem to get myself to stop listening to the Tragically Hip album. "We Are the Same" blows me away. And The Hip have always been just barely on my radar. I have a lot of their albums because their stuff is always INTERESTING, if not always rewarding on a strictly musical level. Lyrically, Gord Downie has the same ability as Michael Stipe at his best - using words to create a affecting image that just burns itself into your brain and sticks with you. They do it in different ways...Stipe's imagery is, to me, more poetic and abstract, whereas Downie often paints a clear picture, almost a prose narration of a situation, suspended in time, and brimming with uncertain meaning. For me personally, I think 2 things kept me from really connecting with the Hip the same way I always have with R.E.M. For one thing, being such a consciously Canadian band, often the Hip's specific images and references are lost on me, and require research and digging to understand (much like with Midnight Oil's Australian imagery). But also, I just never thought the music was on the same level as the lyrics. With R.E.M. almost every song is interesting enough musically to be a good instrumental. My understanding is that's the way they write - songs are only given to Stipe once they're fleshed out and interesting enough to stand on their own in a sense. That's where, at its best, the richness of R.E.M.'s music comes from. With the Hip...I was never blown away by the compositions. Oddly enough, part of the appeal to me was the intellectual lyrics thrown into sharp relief against a somewhat pedestrian musical backdrop, like reading a philosophy textbook accompanied by classic rock instrumentals. At its best, it worked very well, but it wasn't fully satisfying.

But this album, wow. And it's not so much that the music is better or that it's brilliant now, but this is the first album of theirs where to ME everything actually seems like a unified whole - deep, rich, and complete. Everything belongs to and complements something else. It's a really satisfying listen, beginning to end.

And I read that a lot of fans hated it - too mellow, too soft...and I suppose if that's where you're coming from I can understand the hesitation. After all, when Bob Mould put out "Modulate" I had some soul-searching to do - was this techno stuff even still really the same person? What it came down to for me was asking if this was still a Bob Mould song, now that it had a backbeat instead of a wall of guitars? Did I love the songwriting or just the sound I had become accustomed to? Once I could recognize the writing beneath the sound, the choice was easy. On the other hand, I had to sadly walk away from Poi Dog Pondering after "In Seed Comes Fruit" because they had fundamentally altered and watered down their songwriting at the expense of the new sound.

But back to the Hip. "We Are the Same" does sound different, but it's clearly still the Hip. My goodness, "Frozen in My Tracks" is quintessential, and it's not what I would call gentle. What they've managed to do is finally fulfill their own sound's potential so well that they transcend it. And for me, the final effect has been that I am going back, relistening to the older songs with new ears, and they all make a lot more sense to me now. This album has managed to do something amazing - it has clarified their entire back-catalogue for me. And moved them up on my list, to where right now today, I could say they are one of my favorite artists. Top 5? Let's see how that looks:

In no particular order:

Roger Clyne and the Peacemakers
Glen Phillips
The Flower Kings
R.E.M.
The Tragically Hip?

Hmmm...

I think a lot will depend on the next album. If the next album sounds and feels more like "In Between Evolution" and "Music@Work"...then I guess I'm missing the point here and it will still be just a band I listen to on the perimeter of my musical universe.

This was an unusual post, but maybe gives people an inkling what goes on in my mind when I'm listening to stuff. Take it for what it's worth. I gotta go work.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Indefinite hiatus?

Sure seems that way. Been a busy wild month as always. We've come through the holiday season unscathed once more.

Nothing too eventful to report at this point. It was, as always, wonderfully recharging to be with the family so much, and it was, as always, incredibly challenging at times too.

The kids are growing up at their own pace and in their own way, and while there is obcviously some sadness to that, I can also feel myself wearying of the 'little kid' jobs that I have to do so often. The golden moment of Faith and Mari being able to get themselves up on Saturdays, grab some cereal and go downstairs to watch tv without our help is on the horizon. The twins are suddenly interested in the potty book again, and the thought of never having to buy another diaper again is also foremost in my mind. Things are changing in bittersweet ways. But the sweet is feeling really sweet right now.

As far as the other big changes, we're still just watching and waiting. Yes, this time next year things could be a LOT different, in terms of jobs, and much as we hate to admit it, even location. We're hoping things don't go that way, of course, but if my position is eliminated it's sure going to be hard to find another one in Ohio. But, thinking about this future that is out of my control only adversely affects the present, so I keep focused on the task at hand. I still have a job now and I do all I can to do it to the best of my ability. Hopefully I will continue to be able to do it for a long long time.

Hopefully we can keep up on the blog as things develop. A belated happy new year to all. God bless!

Matt